Take time to be alone with the magic of the moment.  Where does a shadow begin and end?  It only takes attention and the willingness to see to fully appreciate something.

Activity
Stare at a shadow or reflection cast from the sun or artificial light source.  It is not easy to focus on something that amorphous and vague.  Blink as little as possible.  Soften your eyes.  Describe what you see.

I have never really just sat there and watched a shadow.  I'm in my office and everything has a shadow.  The shadows don't move even if I do.  It's weird how some things have very drastic shadows and are dark and other objects have lighter or dark to light shadows.  Some shadows take more space than others.  When looking at a shadow I just tend to drift off.  I can't focus on 'a shadow' it's like emptiness or something.  It has no focal point of interest.


Journal Prompts
-List the big and small surprises that have happened to you.  Were any life changing?
-What do you like to do when you are alone?  Does being alone make you feel like something is right or wrong?  Why?
- Today...



Journaling:
Surprises that have happened to me...
My promisary ring.  Punit gave it to me after we had only been dating for about a month or so.  It was  Christmas 1999.  We were going ice skating with my family and when we got into his car to leave he gave it to me.  I opened the box and was in shock.  I was sort of nervous when I saw the box before opening it.  I don't think he meant it to be a promisary ring, he had no clue about them.  I loved it though.  It was too big to wear without falling off (before I got it sized) and I wore it on a chain around my neck.

When my Mom asked us kids if we wanted another brother or sister.  I was shocked that they were pregnant and just didn't like the idea of it at first.  After a few months it was all excitment though.  I told everyone that my Mom was pregnant.  My Dad was driving a truck back then too and I would go with my Mom to the lamaze classes (or with both of them when he was at home).  At the end of the class they gave me a certificate for participation in the class too. I thought that was awesome.  I was my Dad's back as my Mom's coach.  And Colleen did arrive when he was out of town.  I had to also have someone with me because I was a minor.  So in the room there was my Mom, me, my extra person (Jacquie), and another person (Tami) to help my Mom. I remember that my Dad called just as Colleen's head was coming out and we stretched the phone cord as much as we could to get it to reach so that he could hear Colleen's first cry.   When I do talk about this some ppl do get uncomfortable.  To me it wasn't gross... I don't even remember seeing my Mom I just remember seeing Colleen's head coming out.  When it's in the moment you don't pay attention to the details of the surroundings.



When I'm alone I don't feel anything different.  I have no problem with being alone most of the time.  Sometimes when Punit's working nights I do miss him, but I don't feel lonely because we talk on the phone. 

When I'm alone I like to watch movies, sleep, enjoy hot chocolate.  With my Christmas decorations up I like to just sit on the couch or at the table with just the Christmas lights on and candles lit and just enjoy the lights and there beauty.  I like to just sit in silence.  Ever since the radio in my car stopped working I have started to enjoy the silence.  It gives me time to think and yes sometimes I do talk out loud to myself in the car. LOL  Sometimes when I'm at home I have the radio or tv on, but most times I don't.  Though usually I'm on the computer if I'm not watching tv.



Today was a great day.  Punit and I stayed up until about 1am looking at cabins and talking about our trip.  Last night he got home early and was hoping that I would stay up and we could talk.    I slept in until about 10:30.  Made some pancakes with fruit.   I love pancakes.  I used my star-shaped mold too. Just looking at them made me happy.  I went to work, only for 4 hours so it didn't really tire me out.  Punit called me twice and we talked on the IM alot.  Then when I got home I was dying to make a snow angel.  He took a couple of pictures of me.  Then I started throwing snowballs and him. LOL And he throw some back.  That was the best part... also just to hear him say 'that was fun'. Last night after having a snow ball fight with tons of other ppl at work he said that snowball fights are fun unless there's lots of ppl.  Proved he wrong.   We started to make an itenerary together.
All in all it was a really good day.

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